My life has been a bit on the crazy side again. I know, when is it not? If it was not crazy why would you ever bother to read about it? Well things have been gnarlier then usual and all fronts, surfing, work, social, home, romantically, school. Basically I am getting it from all fronts. Lisanti Land is with out a doubt on the brink of spiraling out of control. Then again it usually is. You can’t get apples from oranges.
What the fuck am I talking about? Shit, I don’t fucking know. Its after midnight, I am not drunk for the first night in nearly two weeks. I burned my hands terribly at work, had some disturbing, although not shocking news that bummed me out a bit not too long before this posting and overall am a bit unmotivated to do much of anything lately, yet have been doing everything. I promise I will have a blog to bring everyone up to speed by this weekend, maybe even tomorrow, I just need a day or so to compose my thoughts on things and how I wish to present them.
Sit tight I promise there will be chills, thrills, spills and as always plenty of laughs at my expense, but I could not think of a better way to present my life then through comedy. Its the only way I keep from crying. “A smile can defeat a frown” and “when your smiling the world smiles with you”. Or At least is what everyone likes to hear. If you want a sneak peak check out both the August and September pages of the surf log, which by the way has become more of a journal of my life then just a list of my surf sessions. I may not update new blogs everyday but I do update that section just about everyday. Enough bullshit and on to the task at hand. This edition of ”Groovin’ High“.
Music is such an important part of my life. I am not just talking about as a performer. I always, always have grooves playing and if not then I am most likely grooving in my head. Certain songs I throw on for certain moments and Kanye West’s Everything I am has spoken to me since the first time I heard it while at the 2008 North East Surfing Championships in Montauk, NY, which by the way I won, taking every heat to the final. I had just downloaded the album before I left for the comp.
At the time it was pretty much the beginning of the end for my wife (now ex-wife) and I. That is a whole other series of blogs that may or may not ever be written. Look for it in a fictional novel by me soon (soon meaning most likely never). Why should I write a novel anyway, I mean no one reads anymore anyway. This song really helped me put my shit in perspective. I can rap basically the whole song too. I think Kanye may even be calling me to perform it with him. Hmm…maybe I will sing that one next time at karaoke night.
I feel like the chorus really applies to me and my life perfectly: “Everything I’m not, made me everything I am”. Its true. I have this persona on me that exudes many predisposed ideas to others of what I am about. As a result of this I perpetually find myself in situations that constantly have me looking in the mirror in astonishment thinking “how did I get here”. Truthfully I feel like I am the exact opposite of what most think of me. Sure I help transmit these fallacies. Its always easier to go along with the hype then to let others down. So yeah; “Everything I’m not, made me everything I am”.
My closest friends and confidants know very well what it is I am talking about. Maybe someday when I am ready I will explain that here. In all honesty I would not even know where to begin. I think a bit of mystery is one of those spices in life that many never get to be a part of. In a way I feel lucky.
To go a little deeper into the chorus I think most people can identify with it. ”Everything I’m not, made me everything I am”. How many people do you know or yourself for that matter want to do something and then do the exact opposite because it was the “right decision”. Basically if your not being true to yourself then you are living a lie. Unfortunately I am guilty as charged most of the time and I think most would have to agree about that themselves. If we live the lies long enough then “Everything I’m not, made me everything I am”. I think I have only met a handful of people whom I can say I believed to be 100% honest with themselves and each one of them instantly earned my respect and admiration.
Don’t feel bad if that is not you. Even the best of us get lost along the way. Shoots what is the way anyhow? Maybe this is the way and those other guys are the ones going down the wrong path. What is wrong or right for that matter? You see what it is like living in my brain even for a second. I may seem smart and together on the outside but on the inside I am even more fucked up then you.
Enough philosophizing over a Kanye West song. Musically I love the samples he put together for this one. I have blown my sax over this track hundreds of times. Its one of my favorites to jam out on. Say what you want about Kanye, but the man is a talented rapper/producer and until 808 and Heart Breaks I have to admit I was super stoked on all his stuff and even 808 had its moments. I just think he went a little overboard on that one. I guess he has a new one coming out soon. I must say I am rather stoked to hear it. Wow this blog was bit on the ridiculous side. Please don’t write me off. I promise to have some worth while material at some point. At the very least there are for sure some stories that have happened to me recently that will have you rolling on the the floor in painful fits of laughter.